I had hit my breaking point. I tried to hang on. I really did, but I just couldn’t do it anymore. I was cracking. I was afraid for my safety, and I was afraid of what I might do under the enormous amount of stress I was feeling. I wasn’t making the best decisions. I didn’t feel like myself. I wasn’t being paid enough to deal with this insanity. I felt like someone watching one of those terrible thriller movies. You know what I’m talking about, right? There’s the damsel in distress running through the woods screaming and crying while some scary, faceless whatever or whoever, is slowly and steadily in hot pursuit. Relentlessly, the movie goes on and on with scenes of this nature like a never-ending nightmare, and you have no problem getting up to use the bathroom because you already know what is going to happen next. You might even be asking yourself why you chose this partiular movie over all the others in the first place. It’s terrible and predicatable and poorly written.
Okay. I’m getting carried away. To put it more simply (and less dramatically), my life had become very challenging on a regular basis. I will spare you the exact details of my daily struggles as they would probably fall upon your eyes in a depressing and unattractive way. It really was very simple. I wasn’t happy with the direction my life was going. So, I decided to make a change and turn poison into medicine which brings you to my present state and the starting point for where my blogging journey begins. I have never blogged before. I have always been fairly private when dealing with personal matters in my life. Yep, I’m an introvert. However, I decided not to ignore this new creative spark. Truth be told, my secret wish as a child was to become a writer. So, I decided to go with it and enjoy the experience. Therefore, I am putting an end to that terrible nightmare and beginning a journey to create happiness in my life. With my Buddhist faith in tow, I call forth the courage I will need to change. My intention is to share my daily practice, experiences, moments of insight, inspirational content, and the sources of where I find strength as I move along day by day. My hope is that you too will find inspiration and encouragement along the way.
I leave you with an interesting and fun article to read from npr.org entitled When ‘Take This Job And Shove It’ Isn’t Enough